The gospel text for the Eucharist (chapter 13 of St
Matthew’s Gospel) on Sunday was a very challenging one, especially for those of
us who struggle with our ideas of perfection or anything close to it in life. I believe that every one of us has degrees of
perfectionism, and the more it is a main feature in our lives, the more
‘imperfect’ we really are. Calling
anyone a perfectionist has become something negative rather than positive, though
some may think otherwise. When this
title or label is given, it often silently also says that the person is
controlling, ego-conscious and has an intolerance for the shortcomings of
others.
The parable of the wheat and the darnel is indeed a
great teaching lesson. Jesus is revealing
something about the kingdom of God, and that it has a very disturbing inclusive
character about it. Jesus doesn’t say
that God sowed the darnel or weed in the field.
In fact, he does attribute the presence of the darnel to the enemy. That God does not stop this insidious act
gives us a lot of evidence that supports the explanation of evil in the
world. In fact, if we go back as far as
the creation story in Genesis, we see the same strange existence of good
together with evil where right in the middle of the garden there stands the
tree of knowledge of good and evil! God
has the ability to allow evil to co-exist with good, troubling though it may
seem.
The constant argument that atheists have with the
existence of God is that they see too much evil in the world. For many of them, their belief (which seems
to be an oxymoron in itself if you come to think of it) is that God has to be
good, and if he is all-good, then there cannot and should not be the existence
of evil in the world. But the fact that
there is evil shows then that God does not exist. This of course is a problematic argument
based on the wrong or stilted idea that God also has to be a completely
controlling deity who cannot tolerate anything that is contrary to his goodness
and his perfect plan. Having said this,
the notion of freedom is also not taken into account, which is another bone of
contention for many atheists.
Why would God allow good to co-exist with evil? For the same reason that he allows the sun to
rise on the evil and the good, and sends the rain on the righteous and the
unrighteous. When love is the reason for existence, and it
is insofar as our belief in God is concerned, it becomes the highest common
factor in all actions, even surpassing righteousness and justice. This is the underlying preaching and teaching
of the Church, which often is overshadowed by our individual intolerance of
others who do not think the way we do.
If we really think about it long enough and hard
enough, it is often also the presence of evil or suffering that has strangely
brought about certain ‘good’ in the world.
There would be no martyrs if not for the despots and totalitarian
regimes that bully and kill so thoughtlessly.
There would be no saints who are noted for courage and strength in times
of persecution and trials of all sorts if they had not lived in times of such
hardships and religious intolerance. Or
as Fr Robert Barron so daringly put it, there would be no St Edith Stein or St
Maximillian Kolbe if there were no Hitler.
Of course, this is not to say that God made Hitler into what he was, and
to condone the heinous crimes that he was responsible for, as history has
revealed. But there is a certain
‘wisdom’ in allowing such evil to co-exist with the good, without banishing
them the instant they show up in our lives.
Good does seem to develop in the presence of evil, with the grace of
God. Illness, especially one that is
prolonged and labored, can often also mellow and change a person for the
better, allowing an internal conversion of the mind and heart that can be
something which is somewhat more difficult for the fit and healthy. I have come to see this in a very real way
myself.
When the need for control is identified in oneself, it
can become a stepping-stone towards holiness if one is willing to face one’s
own shortcomings that is tempered with a willingness to be merciful to oneself
too. That we can see sinful actions
around us happening, but not be too quick to condemn them but to bravely step
into the shoes of the other and walk a few miles in them, becomes a gateway to
becoming less critical and a little more charitable in our thoughts and
actions. This, I strongly believe, is an
aspect of Divine Mercy which many of us lack in our need to get things right
and others to see things our way. But
when we are too concerned with our position and stance in life, we will be seen
wanting to pull up the weeds before their time, thinking of course that we have
all the right answers.
Sometimes, it is not the answers that are important as
the experience that the lessons are teaching us in life. This has to be something that the Kingdom of
God imparts, often in silent, imperceptible ways. Perhaps this is where the Kingdom of God
differs so greatly as compared to the kingdom of man.
The former has a character of challenging
‘willingness’ tempered with mercy and charity whilst the latter is far more
concerned with control and being right.
“Sometimes, it is not the answers that are important as the experience that the lessons are teaching us in life.” - I like this and believe it holds true for me.
ReplyDeleteIf one gardens, the gardener’s old adage that “evil weeds grow apace” is a proven, especially in a hot wet clime like Singapore’s and if weeding is not done assiduously, there might be nothing left of a crop to harvest.
However, the parable of the weeds and the wheat, shows a deeper understanding of the planting and nurturing process - where in its earlier stages of growth, each seedling with its elementary root system would not be deeply and firmly rooted in the ground – for it to draw up nutrients very essential for its growth. So in the initial stage the weeds help to compact the soil and provide ‘cover’ so as the top soil would not be lost due to run-off during heavy watering or rainfall. It is thus a necessary ‘evil’ as weeds grow very fast. Thus as I look at my weeds, my ‘dark side’ – I am humbled and yet encouraged that I am still ‘ a work in process’ and weeding is arduous work that needs patience and mindfulness that can only come with a nudge or two from above.
What troubled me at first was why He was not concerned about the wheat being overtaken or strangled by the weeds? Perhaps, is it because- He has that much confidence and trust in me - in the goodness or ‘light’ he has given me and is still giving me throughout this life ..........that the wheat would grow steadily and sturdily and ultimately, even dwarf the weeds ? There is hope still!
God bless you, Fr.
tessa
Dearest Fr Luke,
ReplyDeleteThank You for your post this week, on a topic quite close to my heart. Some years back when I made the decision to follow Christ, I was very zealous and seek perfection in everything I do in order to please the God I love.
His commandment – Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect (Matthew 5:48) was seared in my every thought. I had erroneously took this verse out of context and merely using my human intellect in deciphering what I thought God was asking of me – To be perfect in righteousness in my words thoughts and deeds.
Needless to say, I was on the wrong track, my track of pride and self-righteousness which led to my easy judgement of others and unforgiveness of self, … God’s joy & peace eludes me. My well was dry and I was using my human grit and determination to persevere on.
It was only at quiet time in prayer, when I finally surrendered, worn out and asking the Lord to take over, when I heard the words loud and clear- What I want is mercy, not sacrifice.
It was truly a moment of sweet consolation, and I cherish that moment dearly in my heart. It had took me a while to really grasp the meaning of mercy.
Now, I look upon everyday as a call to be charitable, in my words, thoughts and deeds. To humbly make the daily choice to love, to seek God's strength in my quest.
Yes, there are countless times when uncharitable thoughts will rise, but I am thankful that I am now getting more mindful of such weak moments, when my pride and expectations of others, especially my loved ones, comes in play.
Our God is perfect in love, and so we are called to be perfect in love. As St Therese of Lisieux says it all – On her words "my vocation is love".
My sharing is truly just my way of praising God, in telling of the great works He has done. ;)
Thank you Fr Luke,
Wishing u a happy feast of St James, where you received your new blood type a year ago. ;}
Praying for you as always, for peace and joy in your heart.
United in prayers,
Laura.
Haha frLuke, at the cursory reading, i was sort of disturbed by the writing "love .... even surpassing righteousness and justice" and so close it.
ReplyDeleteYesterday, a friend happened to email me the same reflection and so i re-read. This time, the Holy Spirit spoke to me in "When the need for control is identified in oneself, it can become a stepping-stone towards holiness if one is willing to face one’s own shortcomings that is tempered with a willingness to be merciful to oneself too. That we can see sinful actions around us happening, but not be too quick to condemn them but to bravely step into the shoes of the other and walk a few miles in them, becomes a gateway to becoming less critical and a little more charitable in our thoughts and actions." Thanks father, for the teaching, which also affirmed direction i received.
wt